My notes on Dillard and Thoreau/ stream of consciousness/ awareness of my surroundings:
At 5 pm on my spot:
With every second that goes by I notice more and more things. When I look towards the waterfall I listen to the sound of the water stronger than when I look toward the other side of the pond. It’s amazing to see the birds that pass by in the reflection of the pond or in the reflection of my Kindle. As Thoreau points out in Solitude, I’m “having a little world all to myself”. We are never alone, we are always surrounded by things, nature, people, animals, other planets, the stars, etc.
From 5:40 a.m. to 7:00 a.m. in my spot:
More mosquitoes are flying around me, tons of them, they are in different groups. The birds of the red tree are leaving it. Every bird is flying away: as we always do at some point in our life, towards a goal, to pursuit our dreams, away from home or away from our comfort zone. While we fly we get to know other birds (other people), that flew away from other places, that will enrich our life and our experience on earth. We enrich ourselves by interacting with people. The birds, looking at all the landscapes and cities from the top, like if they were on other level, appreciating everything. Adding beauty, quality, knowledge, strength and worth to their lives.
The sun is rising up very fast! That’s how I should wake up every morning, in order to appreciate the beauty of the universe. I’m surprised that the lilies have not opened yet; I woke up earlier than most of them. I wonder if the ants are awake at this time, I haven’t seen one yet, which is weird because the other times that I have been in this spots I had been surrounded by them. Lots of birds are singing, which make me want to sing among them. Like Thoreau, I’m not feeling alone. There is so much to look at this place. To my back, I can see the volcano and many trees. I finally got to see a spider; I’ve seen a lot of spider webs, but no spiders at all.
We are just like cameras; we can’t focus everything in one place at the same time just by looking once. We focus, we see what we want to see. There are different levels in nature and in everything we see. We choose which level to see. Water drops, lots of water drops in many plants. I thought that the sun was already lighting everything up and as brighter as it can get, but actually it wasn’t because now everything looks brighter. I want to be like the sun, always giving more, doing and achieving more than expected and influencing and helping others with his light.
I wonder why is it so hard for me to close my eyes and remember everything: every single detail that my eyes saw a second before. As I close my eyes, the picture I was just seeing vanishes from my mind and I just see blackness.
So many things that can capture my attention. Sounds, the birds, the waterfall near me. Actually I’m getting the feeling that even birds have patterns to their singing.
There is one flower alone, a beautiful one, I cannot see it very good, I’m going to go for a walk to encounter her. It’s amazing how animals and plants share the space with other plants and animals. Apparently they live peaceful and in harmony. Oh, anarchy! Are flowers a she or a he?
I wonder why people forget that we are creators; we are capable of creating things. I was thinking about the guy who invented digital cameras. I bet that he was passionate for both computers or programming and photography.
We settle, and as we wait for authorities to tell us what to do (at schools, work, and home, we keep on waiting for “the smart people” to do stuff so that then we can buy it). But we too are cool and smart, the only trouble is that we enjoy or we think we enjoy procrastination, sleeping, not taking chances and challenges. But the most horrible thing is that we don’t believe in ourselves. We don’t believe, we somehow forgot to do our homework on loving and looking with awe and admiration to what we as humans are. We need not be humble about it, look around you, you’ll find a lot of work and creation made by men in collaboration with one another.
Everybody wants to be famous, to leave a legacy, to be remembered; but they don’t fight for what they believe. We conform to Corn-Pone Opinions, to what most of the people thing, to fit in. We don’t have opinions of our own, but merely opinions of someone else. We stand for nothing. Many others criticize war but are hard to keep a conversation with because they are stubborn and think they are always right. Men can do nothing alone, as humans, we need to collaborate, thence to communicate with others. It is by this interaction that we enrich our lives and our knowledge grows. We need be willing others to question our deepest assumptions and opinions in order to learn. I don’t want to fit in, I want to stand out. Standing up for what I value and having a great life that I won’t ever change.
I wonder if religion has something to do with this. Because now it seems that people think that they have a happy future secured with the idea of going to “heaven”, they think that just because they believe they’ll be happy in the afterlife. But we don’t know what will happen when we die. We better exercise our free will and do the things that we dream of, because nothing is secured or sure thing. EVERY DAY IS A MIRACLE. Amable Sanchez and Kemeny told me that miracles are everything that the laws of nature or humans can’t explain; hence we are surrounded by them… WE ARE SURROUNDED BY MIRACLES. Human action is a big example of this.